The Thinker

(Thanks Google!)

This has been me for quite some time. Hence the reason I haven't posted in a while. Here's what I have been thinking about:

• There are only 16 more days until I graduate with my Master's Degree. Before then I have a final to take in a class that was originally very difficult for me to understand. The focus is a very nontraditional type of therapy. I finally thought I was beginning to grasp the concept until yesterday. We had a very confusing discussion and I realized I don't get it at all. P.A.N.I.C. There are no more classes before our final. There are no more chances for me to ask questions for the teacher to clarify. I only took this ridiculous class because I knew I liked the teacher. I had no idea what I was getting into.

• I also have to pass an oral exam (not at the dentist, as Levi pointed out) in order to graduate. Basically, three people with PhD's get to decipher whether or not I am competent to be a social worker after my hour-long presentation. Then I get to leave the room while they determine my fate. No pressure, right? To top it all off, I have to wait an agonizing 12 days for it. That's 12 whole days of THINKING!
  

• After graduation, I am going home to kill time until I find a job. What jobs am I looking for? Well, I'm not sure. Whatever it is, it's supposed to be my lifelong career though. Where am I looking for this job? Well, anywhere I have never lived (this eliminates Idaho, Washington, and Wyoming). As you can see, I am lacking direction a little bit. I am beginning to hate the phrase, "The world is your oyster!"
  
• The other concern is when I actually become employed. It could take all summer before I find a job. I can't afford that! So now I'm trying to figure out how in the world (of Filer, Idaho) I can make/save money at home.

As you can see, there is not necessarily a whole lot on my mind, but the things that are on my mind are quite consuming. It is taking all of my energy not to runaway from these thoughts this weekend. It's so tiring, all this thinking. I don't know how The Thinker has done it all these years. I just wish I had a friend to think with...

(Thanks again Google!)